feels good to have someone to lean on.

Its really nice knowing that there's someone to be with you when you're losing hope and you feel like no one understands you. Rabbi a.k.a tatay, is this friend my talking about. This past grading i was confused and curious about what to do next. I was on the stage of the one's they called "the identity crisis" but i knew i messed up. I had been problematic on what would happen with my future. I was so focused on it, that i forgot I'm only 15 still in high school. Its just then i realized that i should not have been worrying about this stuff. Because of that so called crisis my grades got low and everything was so difficult for me. I admit i was also starting to be paranoid. This morning, lets say i almost blew the chance given to me to cope up. I'm so depressed. I wanted to cry but i can't. I thought I was strong but i was not. As if it was the end of everything. Among all the people on my contacts i texted my "tatay". I told him everything. He told I must not be so attached about it. Let it be. Just be ready of whatever would happen next. He told me that I was only on the 3rd year i still have the chance, He said i must enjoy being on this stage. But I still felt pity for myself and so did he. But what i really like about my tatay is that he kept listening. Even though there's nothing for me to worry about. He just kept listening and gave me advices on what to do. I joked him that i would cut myself. He was like. "Don't you ever joke about that again. I'll get mad if you would! " And somehow on that part i felt like someone cared for me. And here i am now, free from worries and everything thanks to my "tatay"