Been fooled ONCE again

How can I be so stupid? Haven't I learned from my past experiences? I really wanna cry. On the first place why did i have to believe all those made-up stories he told me. He told me, he love. He cared and everything! LIES LIES LIES. I can't explain the hurt i feel right now. i never expected that the people i love are also the people who would hurt me. i just want to cry the pain away

From friends to a one-sided love story (chp. 2 )

I was very busy the whole summer to prepare for high school. I hardly knew he was also in my school but in a different curriculum. He had his life and i had mine. When the class started and ended it seemed to be so ordninary but difference is that i have a whole new environment. Lets say I was the closest one to the 3rd year people in my class. I had friends from my old school that was also there. They introduced me to there classmates and eventually we became close friends. One of them is Carmela. Carmela is a very nice girl, well at at first i thought she was half girl. LOL Anyway, Carmela was my closest friend in the 3rd year along with Jefferson. One day I brought my old wallet with me that was really thick because of the pictures it contained. Carmela got it and laid all the pictures on the table and there where he saw Edward. She was really freakin' out. She was like " Oh Kate, who is this He is SOOOO cute" and I was like " Ohh, thats Edward he used to be my close friend and his in this school too. you know" and she was like "OH MY GOD! really?? he is so cute." Then the next day, its as if Edward knew someone had a crush on him, that i dont-know-why he visited me there. I told him that someone had a crush on the 3rd year but he didn't bother at all.

Carmela wanted me to help her on winning Edward. Because Im a good friend, i agreed. I kept saying good thing about Carmela to Edward. Then it was like magic that Edward did fell for Carmela. I would tease them everytime I see them. You know what Carmela should be thankful but instead she kept pinching me. geez! Edward was on the courting part, I would always help him about evrything conencting to win Carmela. I would reply to her messages for him. I would help him decide which gift to give. There are also those times that Edward would force me to go with him to but Carmela's gift. I really thought that they we're already the in the boyfriend-girlfriend stage, but i thought wrong. Their intimate connection was slowly fading. Thats when i knew Carmela only used Edwars as her past time. I was really hurt to see Edward be totally inlove for the first time and get hurt so bad for the first time. He really had a hard time moving on. It's maybe because his world onlu revolve around Carmela. Then just with a flick, it would all be gone.




*names were changed

From friends to a one-sided love story (chp. 1 )

"Eeew! Get away! you're sooo disgusting:. I said with all the gross i had. He was making bubbles using his saliva and worst he's making it fly. And that's great it landed on me! And on that day I totally hated Edward. I totally disgusted him. First, he doesn't seem to know how to wash his oily face, to comb his messy hair, plus he loves to hang-out with his friends that are UGH! But lets say table's were turned. I got an itsy-bitsy crush on him. Well, maybe because he became the opposite of what i just mentioned earlier except with his friends though. We became close friends eventually. He was not that bad after all. But I still can't forget how his saliva bubble landed on my hand. eeek. Edward, became some a hunk/nice/cool/funny dude. We used to laugh a lot together with our crib. I don't mind boys being with me coz im used to it. Im confortable when im with them. :D We used to do a lot of stuff together.

"Time changes and people does too." and that's a statement i so believe in. I dont know what got into him that made him a snob. It seems he became over confident for the fact that people around him was praising him coz he changed a lot based on his looks. He was definitely a snob. Before we used to have our pictures taken together but when we were in grade 6, I knew he felt that he was so cool coz people liked him. geeez! Anyway, i really didn't mind it at all. SO WHAT??! So we graduated elementary like not good old friends.




*names were changed

feels good to have someone to lean on.

Its really nice knowing that there's someone to be with you when you're losing hope and you feel like no one understands you. Rabbi a.k.a tatay, is this friend my talking about. This past grading i was confused and curious about what to do next. I was on the stage of the one's they called "the identity crisis" but i knew i messed up. I had been problematic on what would happen with my future. I was so focused on it, that i forgot I'm only 15 still in high school. Its just then i realized that i should not have been worrying about this stuff. Because of that so called crisis my grades got low and everything was so difficult for me. I admit i was also starting to be paranoid. This morning, lets say i almost blew the chance given to me to cope up. I'm so depressed. I wanted to cry but i can't. I thought I was strong but i was not. As if it was the end of everything. Among all the people on my contacts i texted my "tatay". I told him everything. He told I must not be so attached about it. Let it be. Just be ready of whatever would happen next. He told me that I was only on the 3rd year i still have the chance, He said i must enjoy being on this stage. But I still felt pity for myself and so did he. But what i really like about my tatay is that he kept listening. Even though there's nothing for me to worry about. He just kept listening and gave me advices on what to do. I joked him that i would cut myself. He was like. "Don't you ever joke about that again. I'll get mad if you would! " And somehow on that part i felt like someone cared for me. And here i am now, free from worries and everything thanks to my "tatay"

its your birthday,

Dearest birthday boy, (jan.55)

hmmmm. how imma start this? oh! okay. Happy Birthday. I wish you more birthdays to come, may god bless you with more gifts. life.love.hope.wisdom. DANGG! dude i really miss you. you just don't know. *as if you care. anyways. i just wanna say sorry. I admit that i had not been a really good friend. I ain't perfect. All i could say is that i extremely miss you. i miss our bonding, i miss you hugging me, i miss the times you were there for me. i miss you cheering me up when I'm sad. I really miss your hugs, your jokes, everything that happened before. I wish it didn't have to happen. I don't even know where it started. All i know is that it really hurts losing a dear friend. You were there when my best friends have to be away. You listen to my problems, a shoulder for me to cry on. I must admit this is your worst birthday ever. *for me. why? its because we're no longer friends for a reason that i don't even have an idea why. i don't wanna ruin your birthday so im gonna end this blog. Thanx.

-KATE

Alex Pettyfer a.k.a soon-to-be-HUSBAND

I was eating breakfast with my brother this morning. First we we're watching America's Best Dance Crew waiting for the Jabbawackeez to perform but sadly they're already done I scanned every channel in the TV. Then I saw star movies just started a new movie. Then i saw two cuties (in the film) then there he was sitting on his chair. His Teacher called his attention " Alex, mind sharing something for our class??? " He was so cute in white. Really he is. Oh! the movie is called the "Stormbreaker" before i forget. So.. after that short part, names of the cast started to appear. I was fooling my brother that every guy's name appeared was his. My first thought he was "alex pettyfer" coz' he's name in the film was Alex. Guess I'm right, hahaha. I got stuck on my chair and watched,fantasized, and focused on the movie until it was done. I was really impressed on his moves. I mean how would a 14 year old hottie tie up 5 hideous/huge guys at once. And join the military training for 2weeks and considering that his mates we're against him but then they turned out to be friends. The movie's concept was way cool. I searched for Alex pettyfer in yahoo images and adored his gorgeous face. I edited his pic and posted it on my friendster account (kate_maq28@yahoo.com) *add me if you want and made a blog about him. And i am going to watch his movie with Emma Roberts "WILD CHILD." soo.. ttfn

always be ^^ (continuation)

Continuation? maybe not. :( I was trusted by this guy so much. So don't wanna ruin it. I know i already started it, and i feel bad inside for almost finishing it. I promised him to never tell it to anyone. And here i am, i may not be telling it literally to anyONE but im posting it in a very public site. I know you would say :: "What kind of friend is this??" That's why i don't wanna continue it anymore. i really feel bad for starting it already. Damn. What was i thinking? What if he might read this?? Gahhd!!! I'm so stupid. But see! i didn't finish it :) But im really,truly,badly SORRY for doing it. Hope you would forgive me. FRIENDS??? LAB YAH. so much! *i think.

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Oowwkayy. this post is so dumb. but the things i've said are true.

always be ^^

We we're close friends. Closer than the usual but we didn't bother. So What? Im used to guys chilling with me. We've been unexpectedly close. He's just like your ordinary dude. He's tall,white and cute. He really makes me laugh. We have something similar that made us let say a bit intimate. And Me? im like the other normal girls. i live.love.laugh life to the fullest. Well, it started when we became seatmates in our mapeh class. Because he is also a close friend of my brother-like friend he had no choice but to sit with me becouse my brother-like friend wants to sit with me. At first it was a bit awkward 'coz i dont know him at all. But i didn't turned out that bad infact our teacher called twice coz' we were laughing so loud. Eventually, we started to hang-out and formed a band. But it only lasted for like a week. *grins. We treated each other like best friends even though he belonged to the first section and i was in the second one. We would be with our friends all the time, at the mall, at the beach and anywhere we would end up. He also had a crush on a junior that was really close to me. So i helped him, to win her heart. An in the long run, i found out that the girl is also linked to another guy. They had an issue about their "infatuation" geez. Still they we're not destined with other and went separate ways. In our Sophie's year, we belong at the same room yipeee. So, we were much closer. We used to be linked with each other but duh! i dont likeD him. *yet Sadly, he got kicked out because his grades didn't reach the required grade. I still dont care. *grins We continued 3rd year seperately. He does visit any day at his old school and chat with his old classmates. I would usually be the one he's chatting with. I don't know why i just realized that we we're close. We also begun texting each other. I kept laughing if we we're texting each other. hahahhahahahahaha.

to be continued..